Intercepted Random Brain Waves

It's amazing how much, and how little things can change on the basis of a few words, How your thoughts can be turned 180 just by a few badly chosen phrases.

I had just about resolved myself to get past the whole quitting thing, I'd looked at my possibilities and decided that not one of them was going to be capapble of running the guild without annoying someone. Every single one of them has either an agenda or has managed to annoy enough people sufficiently that the guild would lose members on the basis of them being in charge. Then today happened, and seeing what was a discussion descend into vitriol has put me past the point of wanting to stay as GM, to the point of not knowing really if I want to stay in the guild or worst case scenario playing the game. I used to really enjoy Warcraft, and I even used to be ok with the GM role, but it's had it's shine taken off it by all the politics that seems to have arisen of late, and frankly I'm totally sick of it.

It's amazing how pathetic people can be, and especially when some of them are supposedly your friends and then turn round and stab you in the back. I really don't know if I can be arsed anymore, there are better things to be doing with my life, and even in-game than worrying about who agrees and disagrees with who.

On the whole, a worse day than last time.

I've decided that my life as a GM has run it's course. Basically I'm fed up with coming online to find out that some other drama has befallen the world as we know it, and more to the point that two of my Officers are still bickering with each other. Having one tell me that he didn't think we were going in the right direction, and having more people leave to join end game guilds made me realise that I really can't be bothered with all the grief anymore. So they can have it, and all that goes with, because it has got me down to the point I basically don't want to play WoW.

I don't know what I'll do with Renvik now to be honest, there is a temptation to reduce him to an ordinary member of the guild, there is a temptation to remove him from the guild totally and there is a temptation at the moment to delete him or move him to another server. I don't think people realise the hell they put you through when they decide to get into petty arguments and make everyday of your gaming life less fun than it's supposed to be.

It's a real shame that it's come to this because I've made some really good friends in the guild, and the truth is I would miss some of them a lot. But I also miss the people I used to quest with. Players that have moved onto bigger and better things because they were prepared to take a risk and get on with their gaming unfettered by the ties of being a GM in a guild that seems determined to stand still.

So yes, on the whole, not my best day.